Have you ever felt like you’re on edge over the tiniest things or like you’re not quite yourself because of intense anxiety?
You’re not alone. I used to brush off these feelings, attributing them to everyday stress or the ups and downs of motherhood. But when I found myself constantly at odds with loved ones and snapping over minor issues, I knew something deeper was happening.
I’d often feel a sudden surge of irritability, which sometimes led to strained interactions with my husband, and I dreaded the thought of my children witnessing my mood swings. The weight of guilt and inadequacy bore down on me as I struggled to meet my own expectations of being a stellar parent and spouse. Even at work, my team at HALCON Marketing Solutions couldn’t help but notice my edginess – not ideal if you’re aiming to be a great leader!
Before, I’d chalk it up to “PMS,” a term often joked about but rarely understood. But let’s be real; it’s not funny to dismiss someone’s struggles as “crazy,” especially when support is needed most.
In the midst of it all, I experienced a profound sense of isolation and hopelessness. Despite trying to use the coping mechanisms I’d learned, nothing seemed to ease my anxious nature. I was disconnected from myself, unsure of who I truly was. I began accepting this as my reality.
But that wasn’t the end of my journey. My therapist, Sandra Diver from Lumen Wellness & Counseling, shed light on the possibility that I might be suffering from Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD), a severe form of premenstrual syndrome (PMS) affecting women worldwide. PMDD symptoms include severe mood swings, irritability, anxiety, and depression, and its impact on mothers can be particularly profound.
It’s like PMS symptoms x 10.
The realization that I might have PMDD was a game-changer. It helped me understand that the emotions I experienced during those times weren’t a true reflection of who I am. It gave me hope and freed me from the shackles of my own mind and emotions.
Being aware of my PMDD enabled me to have open conversations with my loved ones. Once my family and I understood my PMDD and its symptoms, I felt even more supported, especially by my husband. He understood the root cause of my irritability and continued to show me grace as I navigated through PMDD.
Together, my therapist and OBGYN devised a treatment plan tailored specifically to address the days leading up to my menstrual cycle.
So, why am I sharing my experience? To encourage others facing similar struggles to reach out to their healthcare provider and explore the possibility of PMDD. We don’t have to suffer in silence or feel ashamed to discuss issues impacting our lives. You are not alone in this journey. You are strong and resilient, facing hormonal challenges beyond your control while still striving to fulfill your roles to the best of your ability.
We’re kind of a big deal. We’ve got this.
